I READ YOUR STORY, I USE TO BE IN THAT SITUATION! IF ANYONE WOULD HAVE TOLD ME THAT MY HUSBAND, THE MAN I TRUSTED,ATE,SLEPT AND SHARED EVERYTHING WITH, THAT HE WOULD DO THIS TO ME, I WOULD HAVE CALLED THEM A LIAR!!! YES, I WENT THROUGH DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, HE ALSO WAS ON DRUGS!! THAT WAS A LIVING HELL!!! BUT, THE LAST TIME HE BEAT ME, MY SISTER HAD TO FEED AND BATHE ME, WHILE I HAD STITCHES IN MY FACE. I ALSO BELIEVE IN GOD, I BOUGHT ME A GUN FROM THE PAWN SHOP, I CAME HOME AND FELL ON MY KNEES AND I PRAYED TO GOD, AND TOLD THE LORD " LORD, I KNOW THAT YOU SAID, THOU SHALL NOT KILL, BUT IF THIS MAN BREAK IN ON ME AND MY KIDS AND PUT HIS HANDS ON ME AGAIN, I WILL SHOOT TO KILL HIM!" I MEANT THAT FROM MY HEART, SO THE LORD FIXED IT, HE LANDED IN JAIL, WHILE HE WAS THERE, I MOVED, STILL IN THE SAME CITY, BUT I MOVED AND HE COULD NOT FIND ME, YES HE LOOKED, BUT GOD WAS WITH ME!! SO, IF YOU HAVE TO, GO TO A SHELTER, A FAMILY MEMBER, OR MOVE WITH A RELATIVE IN A DIFFERENT CITY, UNTIL YOU GET ON YOUR FEET. THE LORD, WILL MAKE A WAY FOR YOU, TRY AND KEEP TRYING, ASK HIM TO LEAD AND GUIDE YOU, I'M A LIVING WITNESS HE WILL!!! AND ASK AROUND, DON'T BE ASHAMED!! ASK PEOPLE WHERE YOU CAN GO TO GET HELP!! AND REMEMBER WHEN YOU HAVE CROSSED OVER TO THAT PLACE GOD WILL LEAD YOU TO, AND HE WILL- DON'T FORGET TO HELP SOMEONE ELSE. GOD BLESS!!!